MeditationI recently decided that I need to start meditating. I don’t need… sorry, I believe it’s necessary, in order to keep my sanity.
I get on the bus and my brain is non-stop. I over think everything, I replay event s in my head, how I could of responded better, what I did today, what I have to do tomorrow. When I get to bed I feel its worst. Yes I find the Essential Oils that I started using does help out a bit, but I still need more help with it. So I decided meditation might be helpful. So I downloaded all these apps. Last week or maybe 2 weeks ago, I downloaded:
· Relax oriental
· Take a break
· Insignt timer
Have I started using them yet? Ok, well not yet. But I do plan on using them soon… I hope. By the time I get home, I have 2 hours with my little CP, and I have to feed her, change her, play with her, then I put her down for the night and then I still have to do whatever around the house… dishes, vacuum, pick-up things from the floor, laundry… the list really doesn’t end. Oh and every 3-4 days I have to wash her diapers, which just the washing takes 2.5 hours, and then I have to dry them. I would normally put them outside to dry but its late at night so I put them in the dryer, and it takes longer to dry than normal laundry. Then I need to shower, eat… it doesn’t end ever. So at night I am pooped, I would LOVE to go to bed early like 9, but some nights, it’s impossible.
So I think I really need to start meditating every night before going to bed. I’ll just tell Babes that if he comes to bed and I have my phone on and I am sleeping to turn it off, if I have my headphones on, to take them off. I don’t want to strangle myself while I sleep.
If anyone has any app recommendations, please let me know.
I have tried yoga and even while doing that I can’t shut off my brain and just concentrate on my breathing. I really need help. My poor brain…